2 steps forward 1 step back

Notwithstanding the scan of a QR code upon entering a venue, or the flash of a vaccination certificate to a staff member, life has returned to normal.

Like the rest of the population, I went into this new period with extreme excitement and anticipation. After months of isolation and uncertainty, and having the word “freedom” dangled in front of our eyes, an escape from lockdown seemed like an early Christmas.

I took advantage of these renewed freedoms until my mind suggested that it preferred to stay at home. Half of my brain wanted the comfort of calmness, whereas the other half pushed for uncomfortable experiences outside the household bubble.

This tension was unexpected and contrary to what the media presented when exiting the restraints of lockdown.

I feel grateful that I had the opportunity to pause and take time out. Not everyone is given this luxury (and it’s a shame that I have to use the term luxury when it really should be available to everyone).

Finding my feet.

I think this is the best way to describe what I’ve experienced in the last 1 and a half months. Trying to find my feet in a world that became incredibly uncomfortable.

A good friend mentioned this to me when I spoke to him about my experience:

“Remember that this process will feel like 2 steps forward and 1 step back”.

It couldn’t have been more accurate, and still, I feel like there are days where I’m taking a step back. But the hope and encouragement of progress and persisting with challenging situations inspire me to keep going as my feet start to make contact with the ground again.

For those of you struggling with finding your feet, I hope that phrase can be of comfort to you, as it has been to me. It’s not easy, it’s not comfortable, but even when we feel like we are drifting 1 step back, there are 2 steps forward coming just around the corner.

Love the journey.

I’ve never been good at doing this – I want things to happen instantly. However, this time has taught me that the journey can be more fulfilling than the final destination will ever be.

Take care,

LL

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